phosphoric / orgasmic

ikebana_adamord @ 2006-04-16T01:29:00

2006-04-16T06:29:54Z

maN, ims so drunk...

ikebana_adamord @ 2006-03-29T22:05:00

2006-03-30T04:53:43Z

i guess i was going to write about something sappy and have my self read it over and over again to interelate what other people are feeling as welll..

i crossed the lines and now i am ready to move..

i am ready to have dust in my eye, and my jeans turn into white.

to the point of no return we shall say.

and onward to that inner journey i dream about..

august and may are here...

i am sweeping off these antics i built my self upon with.

2006-03-22T07:46:01Z

I have percieved and perceptualized many individuals who seem to run there life on factors for breathing, and a common curse for living there fullest, realizing death is imminent. Traveling are the ways of a vagabond, finding a home, ramshackled sometimes, and figure more to life. Better then a 45 year old war veteren.

Friends seem to be on there own quests, forgetting a lot of past memories and difficulties. Some of my friends don't though, such as william.

he is a great guy.

Precious is another, just filled to the very nerve of fluid trasmission, ever flowing memories, biting lips through hard times, and mistreated by me.

it happens, and then i try to forget.

I never use this journal, just my little sketch book my parents handed off to me when i returned from the 3rd time i was kicked out of my house. Right now i am not there, typin gin the comfort of extended families home. THey are more then all right, possibly just like me.

....More wine please
here you go syndey.

quite possibly i might not make another journal entry for a while, i am fucking lazy when it comes to writing about things.

there are so many found memories i remember. Most of you who read this are in them.

well till next time journal.

ikebana_adamord @ 2006-02-17T23:28:00

2006-02-18T05:29:13Z

I am the result of many emotional and facitous lies.

Difficulty Response likes to measure.

2005-12-11T05:31:13Z

I am in this ward of emotion, screaming aches, infinite hypocrites, the gouge, and worst of all, that moment where you cant feel your self talk.

Those casting shadows always seem to have trouble with me, whether or not I caused it .
They give me the ache.

At the very tongue they repeat them selves, those shadows, at one moment they can measure you ability and say positive things,
but there is that twist to there average days as shadows, they leak in front of you and become this grasping measure of negativity, positive matter is
not on the mind now.

Infinite hypocrites if you ask me.
They trade, buy, and sell.
Figure out math problems.
tell the time on watches.
Watch the American flag wave.

Moments occur later after this realization; it is confrontation, which should be mattered with.
The gouge later occurs as if I was blasted in the face with a knife.
I am really tired,
of these occurrences.
Every time I figure out that I am a winner, I realize that in the end, I am the moment where I can’t feel. Walk, Talk, and be myself.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2005-12-03T21:37:47Z

sdhfaklesytrewayhfiuhewafuianggawege fickle brain anemia fuck breath. i spit at the likely shits that fucking sticks on my shoe.

.....

what the fuck is wrong with this woman....

ikebana_adamord @ 2005-10-29T22:49:00

2005-10-30T04:48:23Z

woohooo... friends only.

ikebana_adamord @ 2005-08-15T13:30:00

2005-08-15T18:35:08Z

sometimes this monster in me loves to feed on the surrondings.. i know how i am a cannabal and i can sense it at times.

this is not how i want to live, but i am given what i am given...

but is this power? or is it simply greed for more?

i need to draw a line to where i travel in my head, unlocking more doors can be a dangerous persepective.

to other lighter news, i now own a job at a hooka bar.

and i hope this goes well then my other jobs...

Less psyche provocation for I

2005-08-13T19:39:49Z

i guess i drew the line for my self when i said, "i need to find something to finish in my life."